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Friday, May 4, 2007

Unhappy wolfy again.

Things of mine to see:

Yes, I feel fairly unhappy again. I felt this way since homeroom today, where I wrote something that someone would probably kill me for.

Now let us skip right up to just a few hours ago: when I was coming home from Piano lessons. My dad tells me he thinks that I lack sincerity in my endeavor to learn the instrument, but in reality I just suck. This made me mad, but to hide it, I bit the corners of my lips. I almost bled. He made me want to physically shift so much more than any other time in recent memory. He made me so pissed he cannot know. Needless to say, we didn't speak the rest of the car ride.

Then I just think that I "suffer" from manic-depressive disorder. Did you notice how I went from crazy-happy to depressed and back in such little time? It keeps cycling like this. I think that it will continue like this forever. I don't want to see a shrink because I fear what my brother had to go through, though he had clinical depression. I did not like the idea of psychiatrists since my brother's--I lose the word--ordeal.

So what did I write? I knew you'd want to know. (If you don't, get over it.) I wrote... *hesitates* I'll say it only if you promise not to get mad at me or anything like that... I wrote a suicide note. Yes, you read that right. I will probably never need it, but I possess it. Should I take my exit from the world, I will leave reasons why. I can almost always justify what I do.

Well, I shall leave now. No one knows what this wolf will do, but he needs to migrate toward bed so he can claim "he sleeps."

Oh, and for anyone up for a challenge: Analyze the structure of this post's grammar. If you can tell me what every single sentence lacks, make a comment unearthing it. If you can find the name (or know the name) of this structural quirk, you know much about the English language.

*howls*
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